Sunday, October 24, 2004

settling in

It has been over a month since I last updated and so much had happened in between then. My family and I moved into our house. It's quite an adjustment from having lived in apartments all my life. Been learning to garden, clean the pool and the fish pond, etc... all very very mundane things that consume heaps of time. And we now have internet access - FINALLY!

Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing here in Perth, and what on earth God wants me to do here. Over the past month this question went through my head a million and one times. I didn't get into the graduate course I wanted to take. I panicked, I feared, I prayed, I felt peace from God, I let it go (perhaps it's not the time, or it just isn't supposed to be) I'm now working at church, and it has been good meeting lots of new people. I joined the choir (after an audition! how scary is that!). Cell group has been good. Hmm I'm glad with what I have now... I guess.

Church had its annual RISE conference (think Hillsongs WA-style), and this year was awesome. There were some awesome speakers: Wayne Alcorn, Sy Rogers, John & Helen Burns, Greg Laurie, Phil Baker, Parachute Bane and Marina Prior. I was given the opportunity to volunteer for the registration, so I was able to work and also able to sit in for most of the sessions. The theme this year was "Great Expectations". What was interesting was that the speakers were all talking about past relationships and relationships in the now and dreams. I felt God was speaking to me about my past. Previously when my sister and I would talk about our past, she'd be able to speal on about the events that happened and I wouldn't be able to remember a thing. I've been praying that I'd be able to remember more about my past as I realised something must have happened in the past to stop me from remembering such memories. Over the 3 days of the conference, I felt that I was given some insight about my past. It was some pretty full on stuff. All I can say now is that I can't control everything and have things figured out all the time... God's the one in control. I can do 'ministry/things' with all my heart but without God, it wouldn't work one bit!

So I'm trying not to worry about what's in the future, but at the same time dream dreams and let my dreams flow out and pour it out to God and let Him touch them.