Wednesday, April 06, 2005

slow learner

I have decided that I'm actually a very slow and stubborn learner. Recently I've been learning and relearning about - surrendering and making challenging choices. Even just a few days ago I was stressed about really trivial issues, it really made no sense to me what I was feeling all I knew was that I was feeling really down and anxious about things. I said to a friend a few weeks back that I was thinking of being more involved with the youth/ young adult ministry, and I left it as that. Funnily and sure enough within a week I was approached by different people asking me about my interest in roles available. I've been pondering about my self-esteem and confidence, doubting my own abilities and feeling intimidated. I was really amazed about God's efficiency, He heard my conversation with my friend and then answered it. He sees my heart and potential, He doesn't see me the way I see myself. I need more faith in Him. Surrendering I think for me will always be an ongoing lesson that I will have to continue to learn.

4 comments:

Leanne said...

I think sometimes we're so wrapped up in our own thoughts God needs to speak THROUGH tangible people in our every day life...if you're feeling insecure or your self esteem is taking a battering God showed me this once...when you're a little girl and trying to balance along something, often we don't feel secure until we're holding our Father's hand. Financial security we always invest where we get the most returns...so I guess what I'm trying to say is in this situation - your security and your investment needs to be in God!! Just want to encourage you...we all get a little bit lost sometimes but you are a truly Godly woman and I am so blessed to have you as a wonderful friend!

Leanne said...

I think sometimes we're so wrapped up in our own thoughts God needs to speak THROUGH tangible people in our every day life...if you're feeling insecure or your self esteem is taking a battering God showed me this once...when you're a little girl and trying to balance along something, often we don't feel secure until we're holding our Father's hand. Financial security we always invest where we get the most returns...so I guess what I'm trying to say is in this situation - your security and your investment needs to be in God!! Just want to encourage you...we all get a little bit lost sometimes but you are a truly Godly woman and I am so blessed to have you as a wonderful friend!

Anna said...

I totally know what you mean - i totally struggle with the same thing - feeling uncompetant! thing is in God we can do anything - and God will not give you anything he doesn't think you can't handle! trust me i am learning the hard way..and still learning...

I finally figured out why i kept feeling like i can't do this, though God kept saying i can - its Faith!! I know i need to keep building my faith in God if i want to truly believe his promises... and faith is built on hearing and reading the word of God - that was a revelation to me right there!

Love u princess..don't listen to the lies - you are more than capable. God sustains what he ordains..remember that!! :)
xxAnna

dpma said...

hey you... i know you're a GREAT learner when you put your mind to it!!!

look at A-Level Mandarin! haha.. love ya ANN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!